Just me and my no thoughts. Some days I’m totally blank looking at Mother. It’s like … I’ve seen it all in the past 4 years and there is nothing new under the sun. My feelings (as I watch her) change, sometimes I see (feel) from a different perspective, usually I’m the daughter, sometimes I’m a friend, she calls me by name, but yet so many times, her stare tells me different. How sad this Alzheimer’s is. As she stumbles for words, I want to fill in her blanks, but I really don’t know what to fill in. I just hug her and tell her I love her. “I’ll see you tomorrow Mom”, I say to her every day. “I love you Mom”, I say to her every day. Because she’ll see me the next day, our parting is o.k. with her. For me, an endless goodbye.
Caring Is Sharing/June 25, 2015