A journey in time with Alzheimer's

Endless good-byes

Just me and my no thoughts. Some days I’m totally blank looking at Mother. It’s like … I’ve seen it all in the past 4 years and there is nothing new under the sun. My feelings (as I watch her) change, sometimes I see (feel) from a different perspective, usually I’m the daughter, sometimes I’m a friend, she calls me by name, but yet so many times, her stare tells me different. How sad this Alzheimer’s is. As she stumbles for words, I want to fill in her blanks, but I really don’t know what to fill in. I just hug her and tell her I love her. “I’ll see you tomorrow Mom”, I say to her every day. “I love you Mom”, I say to her every day. Because she’ll see me the next day, our parting is o.k. with her. For me, an endless goodbye.

Caring Is Sharing/June 25, 2015

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Comments on: "Endless good-byes" (6)

  1. Raymond C Nunes said:

    Your words describes the truth about Alzheimer’s, you are a wonderful person, it’s so hard, but with help and support we’ll make it, our love to you and all caregivers, you’re our everyday heroes

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  2. Patrecia (with an E) said:

    my heart aches for you dear Sheila. We think about those with Dementia and Big Al and we know that they are ill…but how rarely do we consider those who stand and wait.
    Wait to be recognised, wait to see a glimmer of hope, wait for something, anything to change..but it never does..so my heart goes out to you and I ask God that He will give you the love and support that you need .
    None of us ever know when this Big Al could strike, it is one illness that had gradual progression until one day we realise that the person that we thought we knew is no longer there, instead there is a person that we continue to love with all our heart but who stares at us as a stranger…
    In time God will heal you both my dear…..

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  3. Endless goodbyes. How like a revolving door that must feel, and mind-boggling.

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  4. This is a very moving piece. I am so sorry for what you and your family are going through. We lost my father to cancer and you’re right that an illness really impacts the whole family and not just the person who is sick. I can’t imagine how you must feel and I wish you continued strength!

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