Here I am …over here, don’t look through your looking glass … look through mine. I’m the one you seek, I’m on a journey … Alzheimer’s . I cannot hold memories any longer … fading … gone. What you see is a different person … I am that person. I have feelings and I have needs to love and to be loved. I’m in turmoil. I see things that aren’t there. I hear voices in my head. I’m burdened to remember things that are gone from my memory when you say, remember! Please … don’t push me to remember … anymore. Please support me where I am. I am still the person God created and loves, just not the one who started on this life journey many years ago. My mind is in tangles … woven memories … different scenarios than expected. I am suspicious. I am lonely. I am fearful. I am frail and feeble of mind. I’m like a child in so many ways. I need to be cared for. I want to be independent, but atlas, I cannot. I want to help others, but I cannot even help myself. Please help me to have …burden free days. Help me … to be … and to be happy. It’s hard …my mind has just enough memories of my old life to be upsetting at times. Yes, I may know your face and call your name, but really I don’t remember. I want to, but I can’t.
Sincerely, Your Friend, Your Neighbor, Your Sister, Your Aunt , Your Mother. Your Grandmother. I will continue this journey. Can you be strong? I need you to be!
Caring Is Sharing/sg
Comments on: "The Looking Glass – reblog from November 2013 – deja-vu’" (2)
this is exactly what Mom is trying to say, it is what she wants you to do…be strong for her, support her and always be on her side, no negative thoughts only positive thinking, but most of all be strong. Be strong in your belief in God..He is there always , He will help not only you but Mom as well. He has faith in you so you must have Faith in Him….
Chin up and keep smiling
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Very powerful this Sheila…praying as always… xx
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