When things are haywire, I look up to heaven and say REALLY! SERIOUSLY? I CAN SCREAM? YES YOU CAN! (I HEAR THE LORD TELLING ME, REALLY I DO).
Most days Mother is content to do her daily ritual, which includes taking a late morning shower (if she wants to …sometimes I nudge), have her cream of wheat (with cinnamon), takes her medications (crushed in chocolate pudding – NATURALLY!) strolls outside and enjoys the sunshine ( she likes 80 degrees), and then she’s ready for a nap (maybe)!
T.V. is her entertainment … she doesn’t read well anymore, (she’s memorized parts of the Bible) or write legibly (she wrote down her favorite songs over the years). She does like old movies (Sending for the Scarlet Pimpernel recently) and she LOVES TO SING (she’s memorized many love songs from the 40’s and 50’s ) and WHISTLE, she’s very good at whistling tunes!
She’s not interested in any crafts I’ve suggested, doesn’t like any kind of board games and the list just goes on and on.
Her life was raising children and taking care of her home. She obsesses over her delusions and hallucinations. She hears her youngest son ALL THE TIME, and scurries from her room and says, ” where is he”, ” I just heard him” then is angry because I’M KEEPING HIM FROM HER (YEAH, IN MY HIP POCKET!).
She has an amplified phone to call her kids when she wants, but as easy as it is to use , she never remembers how. I sometimes call my siblings for back up and give her the phone …they called!
Every few hours, she’ll say, Sis …I’m hungry, haven’t eaten ALL DAY (the other day, she said, just haven’t had any money and shrugged her shoulders). I just stare at her and fix a small (saucer size) plate of food, she eats, about a cups worth of food throughout the day. I’m getting better at whipping up meals on the spur of the moment.
Yes, she still loves Hershey’s chocolate bars (6-8 A DAY) and drinks milk like it’s coming out of a faucet! AMAZING!
Don’t get me wrong, I couldn’t be anywhere else but caring for her, even so, SHE KNOCKS MY SOCKS OFF! SERIOUSLY! SCREAMING? YOU BET I CAN …IF I want to (which I won’t, but I could) …I heard it with my own ears in my heart of hearts! God loves me too!
CARING Is Sharing/sg